One of the funny things my man says when he’s frustrated is, “Who can I blame?!”
I say it’s funny, because he’s not a blamer, by any stretch.
But I am. And that’s funny too, because when it comes out of my mouth, most of the time, there’s only one person to blame.
Me.
So it was today at noon, when the phone rang and it was a realtor wanting to show our house at 2:30, throwing me into a FULL scramble to have my house presentable.
“AAAAHH. WHO can I blame?!”
The realtor?? No. He’s trying to do me a favor….
God?? No. He tried to tell me to have the house ready.
Me?? Yup. Again. (embarrassed sigh)
Why don’t I listen?? Or the better question is, “Why don’t I obey?” – because sometimes I have no trouble hearing God…. I just choose to do my own thing.
I honestly sensed Him telling me to have the house ready yesterday and today. I audibly responded, “Lord, You big silly, we’re not going to have a showing today.” To which He replied, “Soliloquy, you won’t have a showing unless you’re ready for a showing.”
Here I am begging Him to sell this house, outlining my four-point-plan of why it is such a very good idea…. and when He tries to do it, He finds me about as uncooperative as I can be. A bit incongruous, no?
So I had my little come-to-Jesus meetin’ with me, myself and I. And being the gracious God He is, He gave me just enough time to get the house pulled together.
But other important things fell by the wayside….
And I only have myself to blame.
This is a minor thing, but you know what? It doesn’t matter. God majors in it all and what’s most important to Him is the state of my heart. Which today, I’m embarrassed to say, He found lacking.
I heard Him, and I blatantly ignored Him.
Thankfully, He is merciful. My God of more-than-2nd chances accepts my repentance, and casts my sin as far as the east is from the west. (Psalm 103:12)
James 2:13 Mercy triumphs over judgment!
Again.
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Oh my! You brought tears to my eyes because this is so me! I argue with God all the time
but He’s always right — much like my hubby’s always right, and let me tell you — it’s tiring always being wrong.
Oh well, I hope your house sells quickly so you won’t have to worry with any more of that getting ready stuff
because that sounds too much like work!
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I’m right there with you…there are days I wonder why I don’t follow what God has told me to do…and then I panic since I’m in a bind. *sigh*
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Lisa B follows me. I was a commenter here first and now she’s all up in your bizness and posting comments and all.. before me even. (I’m so kidding)
But don’t we all struggle with this? Prepare for rain… and then it will rain. That whole prepare thing? Sucks… which is why, I’m a firm believer that I’m still single. I have a list of things that I think God wants ME to take care of before he will provide a provider in human form. And I just don’t want to do them.
Oh just blame me for bothering you with all my emails today.
I feel like I am constantly testing God on this. Like maybe He doesn’t understand MY point of view. Hmmm, My Hero has a problem with me doing that too…should that be an even bigger hint that I need to Stop. It.?
At least you got it done, and hopefully the showings won’t go on for too much longer.
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I LOVED it when my house sold – - – HATED every moment of having to get/keep it ready for showings. Hated.
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Gotta love that mercy thang He does so well.
And yeah…the “listen but maybe not obey” part? We get that here, too.
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