Some Days I, Too, Want To Run Away

Yes yes.  Everything she said, yes.

If I could have plagiarized Melissa’s post, I would have.  But Melissa is from Texas.  She has a large family with men named Bubba and Rocco (tee hee!), not to mention a mama and a granny I don’t believe I’d ever cross.

There’d be nothing left of me.  Melissa has a deep-fryer and she knows how to use it.

So I’ll “borrow” her theme and write my own post.

There’s so much I don’t say here, which is ironic seeing as I started this here anonymous! blog! to be a place where I could SAY WHAT I JUST HAVE TO SAY.

Gah.

I gotta’ get over that.

Okay, piggybacking on Melissa’s “Reason I Want To Run” and “Reason I Won’t” post, I humbly submit:

Reason I Want To Run:

Because I’m tired of giving and giving and giving and receiving ingratitude/ bad attitude in return.

Reason I Won’t:

Because I am purposed by God to give and give and give in response to the utter belief – the conviction – that first – first! – He loves me.  I am pure in heart when I am walking in the only truth that will ever stand. He loves me.

Reason I Want To Run:

Because a lifetime of unmet, stifled needs sacrificed for the unhealthy “benefit” of  people around me has worn me down to a trace of who God intended me to be.

Reason I Won’t:

Because Satan doesn’t get to win.  Because if Jesus dyin’ for them wasn’t enough, ain’t no sense in me dyin’ for them, too. (Spoken by the great Tony Evans.)

Reason I Want To Run:

Because my trials seem inconsequential compared to those of others.

Reason I Won’t:

Because my trials are! not! inconsequential! Back to where you belong, Satan!

Reason I Want To Run:

Because I think my husband and children deserve better than they will ever have in me.  I live in fear and trepidation that I am ruining my kids.

Reason I Won’t:

Because GOD HIMSELF ordained my marriage and my motherhood and He will not be mocked. (Galatians 6:7-8)  Because GOD HIMSELF will continue to equip me for the purpose to which I am called, so that I may be pleasing to Him.  (Hebrews 13:20-21)

Because a guaranteed way to ruin my kids is to abandon them in any way.

Reason I Want To Run:

“The thief [Satan] comes only to steal and kill and destroy;”

Reason I Won’t:

“I [Jesus] have come that [you] may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:6

It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. – Galatians 5:1 (NIV)